What a Week.

This week was one of those weeks when I was just in an entirely different world all week long. I came back to Earth a few select times, but most of my week was spent somewhere else emotionally and spiritually.

Unfortunately, I let it show.

Usually I try to hide how distracted I am, but this week, I guess it just wasn't possible.

Especially today.

In Life of Christ today we were talking about Jesus growing. in wisdom, stature, and in favor of God and men.

And we were talking about how he learned obedience. Not that he was disobedient, but that he was learning to be more and more obedient, so that on the day when he was asked to give up his life he could. How if it had been even one day earlier, he may not have been prepared to take that step. We talked about how obedience is progression, obedience is submitting to a greater degree with each step, and perfection is completion. Perfection is total obedience - to the point of death.

We discussed Jesus being tempted in the wilderness. Jesus needed to learn about suffering. Jesus needed to suffer that much, so that later he could suffer even more.

We talked about how true humanity is to trust in God and his faithfulness, even when it doesn't make sense. Even when we don't want to. Even when it hurts, even when we think our world is completely falling out of place. Even when everything and everyone we ever trusted lets us down.

And do you know what I started to do?

I started crying.

....

I hate being so emotional.

But with all the sufferings of other people that has been on my heart this week, I just couldn't handle it anymore.

I can't decide if it is comforting or terrifying to know that each suffering is bringing us one step closer to perfection. Perfection suddenly seems very.... hard.

Maybe it is comforting. God knows that with him, we can handle exactly what is placed before us at that exact moment. He knows that we have grown enough to fight temptation, and to overcome.

But there's no lying, it's hard.

And it is hard to watch people that you love being tested right up to their limit. And it's hard when they won't even be honest with you about it. And it's hard when you are hundreds of miles away and you can't help them at all. Not even give them a hug.

I guess you could say that's where i'm at right now.

Still emotional.

Still hurting immensely for those I love, and still a little prone to teariness.

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My Wish

Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow

And that each road takes you where you want to go

And if you're faced with a choice and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walking 'till you find the window

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

But more than anything,

more than anything -

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to:

Your dreams stay big and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too.

This is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget

all the ones you love in the place you left.

I hope you always forgive and never regret

and that you help somebody every chance you get,

You find God's grace in every mistake,

and always give more than you take.

But more than anything,
more than anything -

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to:
Your dreams stay big and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to
I hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too.
This is my wish.

My Favorite Girl

Love,

Kait-a-lin

Social Club Open House Numero Dos

Tonight was the second night of Social Club open houses.

Tonight's focus club: Zeta Rho.

I had a FANTASTICC TIME.

This will be the hardest decision EVER. I guess that is what the Mixers are for.

I guess that is my only update. i had just as good a time tonight as last night.
eeeeek!

Open House Numero Uno

Tonight was the first of two open houses for Harding Social Clubs. It was really nice, there are really only two clubs I'm interested in, and one was there tonight and the other is there tomorrow.

Tonight's agenda:
Delta Gamma Rho

I had a really really really great time. It was really awesome getting to know all the girls, and a few of the boysss too. I guess I'll just wait and see how tomorrow night goes with Zeta Rho. It'll be a harddd decision for sure.

Lori and Kat also went (i was very very proud of them), they checked out Shantih and Pi Theta Phi. They both really liked Pi Theta Phi, and I think that is AWESOMME. Its all so exciting for me.


This morning I woke up to a fire alarm >:(
It was a veryyy rude awakening. but then i skipped chapel because i was feeling AWFULLL. But i feel better now :)

And that was my day, with some classes thrown in. I'm now avoiding homework. Which I must do now.

Love love loveee.

Where is the Love?

No, i'm not quoting the Black Eyed Peas feat. Justin Timberlake

It's an honest question.

Though in this instance, the Black Eyed Peas might have something right. Asking the right questions, at least.

What has happened to us as humanity? Why so calloused, so heartless?

I know there isn't really an answer. Everyone has their own problems, problems that not everyone can understand. But i think we need to try a little bit harder. Be a little bit more willing.

And remember that love doesn't come without pain. Would it have such great moments if there weren't some rough patches to compare to?

We need to make commitments and keep them.

keep them, being the key part to that sentence.

We all need to realize that everyone is human, everyone makes mistakes, and everyone has sins that will make them fall over
and over

and over

again.

But forgiveness is what it is all about.

There is so much anger and hatred spread by Satan in the world today. Instead of focusing on the humanity of those that hurt us, we need to be solving problems, forgiving, loving, and ending all the anger. not spreading it.

Where did family values go?

What about speaking to one another in love?

1 Corinthians 14:20

Brothers, stop thinking like children. In regard to evil be infants, but in your thinking be adults

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

my heart is breaking.

still missing summer

i'm glad to have a job. but... papercuts are the WORST.

everyone who says that brown and blue don't go together need to look at this:

gorgeous.

After being so busy all summer, and having a very busy semester in front of me, i really just find comfort in the simplicities in life.


being outside, running through sprinklers, reading a good book (Gatsby is my book of choice), having dinner with a friend, color, water, trees and dirt and leaves.


all of it.


i feel like i missed summer... somehow it escaped from me, and i really miss it.

First day of School!

Today was the first day of classes of my Sophomore year!

i skipped chapel... because i needed sleep after impact.
then i went to world lit for half an hour - gen ed = whatever
then Life of Christ - it'll be hard, but AMAZING
Then lunch in the room with the girls
Then Calc 1- and i'm not as scared as i was
Then CAD - which will be wierd, but fun. I'm a little intimidated now...

Then i went to my first day of work at the Admissions Office - yayyy.
I really enjoyed it. I got to work with Stacie C., and that was a ton of fun. It was just stuffing pamphlets today, but i got 2 hours in, and i got to meet new people, and i wasnt bored at alllll today.

This year is already turning out to be the BEST. I'm comfortable with my friends and my niche at harding.

Club open houses start on monday. eeeeek!!

I'm really, really, really excited for this year. I LOVE my roommate, i LOVE my friends, and i LOVE the new friends that i'm making.


kisses.

IMPACT

Impact has been going well so far. We are constantly losing people. but that is to be expected. Things just get so busy for the incoming freshmen, i wouldnt expect every single one to come to every single event.

I met someone that Brandon and Veronika know from Indiana - that was cool.

I just saw Brooklyn- long lost friend from greenville

I saw Jacob from a distance - another long lost friend from greenville

Annnd, i've been having some fun.


My roommate came in and i am SOoooOooO happy. I Loooove that girl.

update complete.

It was really hot on monday.

But i am settled into a nice and cool dorm room now, just about ready for everything to get going.

It's been fun to see a lot of my friends that are here that weren't here last year, but it is also a little weird to see them all... Here.

My two lives are melding into one :)

My roommate gets in tomorrow. i'm super duper excited. I love that girl. And it will be nice to not be alone in the room anymore.

i'm tired. and i have to finish my project.

lovelovelove!

oh, Harding

Harding got a new web-blocker, and it doesn't let xanga through. So i've gotta use this now.

i guess it could be fun to have a new blog. that i will actually use.




More on my return to harding later. :)



peaceandlove.