Thursday, December 18, 2008

MANY THE MILES
There's too many things that i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets
I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would've thought by now
I'd have learned something

I made up my mind when i was a young girl
I've been given this one world
I won't worry it away
But now and again i lose sight of the good life
I get stuck in a low light
But then Love comes in

How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and i'll be happy to follow you Love

I do what i can wherever i end up
To keep giving my good love
And spreading it around
Cause i've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes
I've learned how to cry
And i'm better for that

Sing how far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Send me the miles and i'll be happy to
Follow you Love

Red letter day and i'm in a blue mood
Wishing that blue would just carry me away
I've been talking to God don't know
If it's helping or not
But surely something has got to got to got to give
Cause i can't keep waiting to live

How far do i have to go to get to you?
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and i'll be happy to yeah
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
Been talking to God don't know if it's helping or not
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
Oh send me the miles and i'll be happy to
Follow you Love

There's too many things i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets i haven't seen


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

"with a delicate soul, i don't claim to know much"

And the craziest semester ever comes to an end.

I feel like this has become a tradition - reflecting at the end of every semester. But i'm thinking its a pretty good tradition to have.

Where do i even begin?

Classes- insanely hard. probably the hardest load i have had yet, and will have. and yes, i totally conquered them. (more or less)

But really, even though classes took up pretty much all of my time, i don't think that they are how i will remember the semester.

This was the first fall semester where i did not everyday see my hope slipping away from me. That ability to maintain hope has made all the difference.
Confidence has also made a huge difference.

i have SO much to be thankful for.


I have one of the greatest teachers at Harding teaching in my major. Her encouragement, honesty, criticism, compassion, kindness, love, passion, and drive is inspiring.

Living in the same dorm with my closest friends has been huge. Even though i've had a terrible living situation, being able to go to their apartment ALL THE TIME has been a HUGE blessing. I am so thankful that i have friends that love me enough to not care when i show up for hours and hours on end because i am bored, or because i need to study, or just need to get away. they are amazing.
That, along with movie nights almost every week, and pizza parties, and little rock adventures. These are the things i will cherish forever.

The semester started out with a stressful and painful end to a friendship that i had hoped would last for a long time. But the confrontation gave me confidence and strength i could have never found elsewhere. It also taught me something about myself that has been key this semester.

I have learned so much about myself. It's unbelievable.
Taking speech with Dr. Garner has honestly changed my life. Seems a little weird that COMO 101 could be life changing, but it has changed the way i understand myself and others. It gives me enough understanding to be patient with the people who are different from me.

At Harding it is SO easy to get bitter. It is so easy to be bitter about relationships. The one thing that i learned from the confrontation i faced at the beginning of the year is that i need time. Harding seems to speed up the dating process to a pace that i just cannot handle. I can't keep up with it. I can't keep up with a guy who wants me to be perfect. I can't keep up with a guy who won't spend time really getting to know me, but is always keeping one eye out for the next best thing.
Instead of falling into the mentality that is obsessed with getting married before graduating, i need to be taking time making friends, learning to love everyone, and serving.
Forget the rush
I'm spending my time building real, lasting relationships.

I have become a member of the most amazing club on campus. enough said.

I feel older.

maybe a little bit wiser.

and a whole lot happier.



Essentially: this is the first semester i have not had an all-consuming bitterness take hold of my heart.

Its beautiful.













hardest semester = best yet.